hello 2012!

happy new year to you all and hello 2012! i just can't believe the new year is here and the old year is behind us... i do love the start and feel of a new year... new dreams and aspirations, the hope of new things to come, the relief of leaving the old behind... remembering the good times and saying goodbye to the bad, the feeling of starting a new journey. i feel good about this coming year, i am ready to get started and i'm excited about my 2012 projects; project life/365 & my 'one little word'... relinquish!!  this year i am working on 'giving it all up to God'... saying goodbye to control and goodbye to the worrying that come with the lack of control, goodbye to fear of the unknown, goodbye to insecurity, goodbye to anxiety, goodbye to feeling inadequate.  hello to serenity, hello to calmness, hello to surrender, hello to a safe haven, hello to a sanctuary, hello to my protector, hello to release, hello to relinquish. this year, my word found me... i am excited about letting my word live on my heart and i am ready for this flight. after spending time reflecting on my word... i am eager for these changes in my life, i know what i want for myself and  how i want my days to look this coming year. one thing i am going to focus on is relinquishing the desires to control my future... i want to relax and invite happiness and excitement of the unknown back into my life and feel secure while doing it.  today i am sharing a song with you that i have been listening to for years, 'completely' by ana laura ... but today i heard it differently...

'the power of change is in giving my life and laying it down, down at your feet, right here in this moment. take my heart, take my soul, i surrender everything to your control'

these lyrics hit me like a bolt of lightening... i love those awe inspiring moments and i couldn't help but wonder how long God had been trying to reach me with this awakening.  i love the line from the movie 'facing the giants' it describes how i have been feeling on and off for quite some time now...

Lord Jesus, would you help me? I need you. Lord, I feel that there are giants of fear and failure staring down at me, waiting to crush me. And I don't know how to beat 'em, Lord. I'm tired of being afraid. Lord, if you want me to do something else, show me. But You're my God. You're on the throne. You can have my hopes and my dreams. Lord, give me something. Please, show me something.

i can't wait to start this journey with God and my word and i can't wait to see where my relationship with this word will take me, alone with God... i am enough.

Wishing each and everyone of you happiness and joy in the new year and may God bestow many wonderful blessing in your life.

1 I love you, O LORD, my strength.2 The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. 3 I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies.

Psalm 18